Working and Thinking......Should Be a Good Combo, But It's Not Always

Hey All!

So this isn't a real post.

I mean, it is...but it isn't.

It is about photography (but a little bit more about life) but it will have no photos (cuz it's more about life).

I was just working and thinking (see title) the other day and I was suddenly struck with this overwhelming feeling of - "What am I doing? Why am I even trying to do this? This is ridiculous. I'm not gonna make it."

When thoughts like this hit you it is very hard to keep working. It feels pointless all of the sudden.

So, I stopped working and took a breather.

I had to *try* to push all of that negativity out of my brain and refocus.

Discouraging thoughts like that come and go.

Usually the passion for what I'm doing far out weighs all the doubt and fear.

However, every now and then......it strikes.

The self doubt.

The fear.

The feeling that no matter how hard you try you will never "make it".

The, what feels like, absolute truth that you are not good enough.

It feels very real. And very true.

No matter what people tell you - no matter how many supportive people you have around you - it feels like you are setting yourself up for failure.

Truth, all of the sudden, feels very hazy. Like, yesterday the truth was that you were going to achieve all the goals you set for yourself and nothing could stop you.

But today, the truth is that nothing you do will ever be good enough.

It's a conflict that you have to resolve within yourself to truly overcome it.

This kind of inner battle is not uncommon.

Actually, I feel it's all too common.

I am working through it.

But it takes time.

Sometimes quite a bit of time.

The point is, though, that you DO work through it. That's the part that really matters.

And that, is what I'm working on...that part that really matters.

I know this is not my regular up beat post....but isn't that how life goes?

Sometimes it's hard.

And I think it's important to talk about those times as well as the happy-go-lucky times.

I will have pictures for you soon (my goal is Saturday!).

So stick with me!

I love you guys.

Shoot ya Later :)